Well I have been woefully out of touch...I'm sorry. Last week was kinda rough for me, but a lot of that was my fault I'm afraid. The effects of the chemo were building up toward the end of the week and then I had the blood transfusion looming ahead, which I should have seen as a GOOD thing, but for some reason I got kind of freaked out by it and that made the emotional and physical symptoms worse (nervousness, jitters, upset stomach, etc). Anyway, suffice it to say that I'm VERY glad to have last week behind me. The transfusion was originally going to happen on Saturday; then we discussed doing it on Monday so I didn't have to spend a weekend day in the hospital; then the nurse suggested I get an early start on my chemo Friday and just go straight up to get blood after that. That's what I did and - now that it's over - it was a good decision, it's just that it was a very long day and...well...I didn't start it in a very good frame of mind. Poor Ginny drove me that morning and she had to help me pull it together. I got chemo from 7:30 AM to about 12:30 PM, then went upstairs to "short stay" for the blood transfusion. They infused 3 units at a rate of 2 1/2 hours per unit - so I was there until probably 8:30 or 9:00 PM. They gave me Adavan (sp?) twice on Friday to help me relax, so I slept through parts of the day.
I DO think the blood was helpful - I feel pretty good today - I don't have so much of that wiped out feeling. Have to go the hospital in a little bit to get a shot of Neulasta.
I gotta be honest, I'm a little worried about the fact that I lack any interest or excitement about anything. I just feel so blah all the time...which isn't normal for me. I know it's a beautiful day and I should probably go out for a short walk but I just have no motivation. Ah well, hopefully this will also pass.
Larry just pulled in to mow my yard...bless him. Marjie please tell him THANK YOU once again. I'm so grateful (still) for everything everyone has done and still does for me.
Thanks for reading. Love, Susan
I see a strong, brave woman when I look at you.
ReplyDeleteThe battle you're fighting is not just for you, but for everyone who loves you.
Thank you for your strength and fortitude!
Susan,
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to hear that you are feeling better. You are half way done. You are such a strong person and you will get thru all this. The I don't care mood will change and energy will return. Glad the transfusion went well, that will help the way you feel also. Take one day at a time.